Dangers of Endearment!

HoldDearThere’ve been things and there’ve been traits that I’ve held really close to my heart. I’ve seen them slide away right in front of my eyes. It hurts you when you lose something that you treasure.

And I learnt from it.

What exactly? Well, initially that I should stop holding anything so dear to me.  That this world is only temporary and nothing is going to last forever, so why endear something so much when we know it won’t last. .. why cause all that hurt due to these attachments.

And then I saw myself changing as a result of this new attitude… There was a contentment with just about everything, any gain or loss… also a feeling of alienation, that consequently brought  a certain gloominess and also emptiness in the whole picture… and then ofcourse as always some events take place, leaving behind a series of lessons that particularly threw some clear light on the emptiness, and I realized I needed to revisit the lessons derived from what I deduced.

Even though things don’t last.. even though I would hold something close and it’ll go away…. I am still prepared to hold it close because I realize now the pleasure in holding something dear is unparallelled to the pain of losing it.

And though I’ll be hurt because the pleasure won’t last, but then so will the pain!

If this world is actually so transient then I won’t be hurt forever. The hurt won’t last. And I am happier with this new derivation…. I am again pleased to hold close. I am pleased to stay ignorant while I am actually a little more aware.

And I like it.

It has taken away the gloominess and the emptiness from this evanescence.

It has lit it up.

It has ornate it with the beauty of love that for how ever long its lasts, fills up the air in its aroma. And even when it leaves, leaves behind the fragrance of beautiful memories and joyful moments alive.


Thoughts for the special paper..

I brought raw wood paper from Fairy Meadows last year and wrote my own saying on it and sent it to my brother. He loved it. This time I brought Papyrus from Egypt and wrote a few thoughts on them and sent them to some of my family around the world. They really appreciated.

Now that all the dispatched pieces of paper have reached their destinations, I thought I’d share the lines I wrote to them here too:


Clean your window thoroughly, or the whole view of the world gets hazy…

and do not worry about how ever long it takes for you to clean it!

A new dawn

There’ve been times in my life that I’ve felt I am not being myself…Each time I thought its the new me, and I’ve changed…somehow that kept me content through any stupidities that I would be making too…But the truth is I hadn’t changed a bit… I think we don’t change…We don’t keep the capacity to change… Even when one says i’ll change for you, its really not in their hands… You try, you succeed for sometime too, but the truth is you can’t just change into another being..

So I believe all those times I thought I’d changed, I actually hadn’t..Because nobody does!.. You just take the easier route…grieving at yourself for being the victim of circumstances… and blaming all that is not working out in your favour on either your past or your mental state. But the truth is you are actually having a great time being reckless and irresponsible. The truth is that you actually are a victim of laziness…and we all are, everyday!.. but that doesnt justify it. Just because some others do something bad, doesnt mean I am allowed too, or am I!

Even if you don’t regret all that you haven’t been able to do so far, there is still that one thing that we need to change… Not ourselves, but our attitudes. We are stronger than that laziness that comes in our way of improvement, stronger than irresponsibility and stronger than the wrong. We are going to use our talents and strengths everyday. We are going to stand on our feet. We’ll stop waiting for others to push us around, or even provide us a little bit of  support everyday. Our lives are not to be wasted. We are not to be wasted. We are stronger than anything lying out there. We are not waiting to hear anyone’s orders anymore.

We have got to use our bodies to the fullest, and at our very will, before they paralize on us and stop functioning!