There’ve been things and there’ve been traits that I’ve held really close to my heart. I’ve seen them slide away right in front of my eyes. It hurts you when you lose something that you treasure.
And I learnt from it.
What exactly? Well, initially that I should stop holding anything so dear to me. That this world is only temporary and nothing is going to last forever, so why endear something so much when we know it won’t last. .. why cause all that hurt due to these attachments.
And then I saw myself changing as a result of this new attitude… There was a contentment with just about everything, any gain or loss… also a feeling of alienation, that consequently brought a certain gloominess and also emptiness in the whole picture… and then ofcourse as always some events take place, leaving behind a series of lessons that particularly threw some clear light on the emptiness, and I realized I needed to revisit the lessons derived from what I deduced.
Even though things don’t last.. even though I would hold something close and it’ll go away…. I am still prepared to hold it close because I realize now the pleasure in holding something dear is unparallelled to the pain of losing it.
And though I’ll be hurt because the pleasure won’t last, but then so will the pain!
If this world is actually so transient then I won’t be hurt forever. The hurt won’t last. And I am happier with this new derivation…. I am again pleased to hold close. I am pleased to stay ignorant while I am actually a little more aware.
And I like it.
It has taken away the gloominess and the emptiness from this evanescence.
It has lit it up.
It has ornate it with the beauty of love that for how ever long its lasts, fills up the air in its aroma. And even when it leaves, leaves behind the fragrance of beautiful memories and joyful moments alive.
mirrormon 